My intervention...

so if you are my friend on facebook... you know about our office 'biggest loser' contest. I mentioned that I figured it was just an intervention for the only person playing that actually has poundage to lose...aka...me! Whatever the reason for playing I have learned a lot about me and my eating and exercise habits (or lack there of)! I am amazed at how many calories I have been absent mindedly putting in my mouth and therefore my body. Just a bite here or a 'small' bag there and walla - 50lbs to lose! Then I always think I am going to really make a habit of exercising and I do really well for the first day or maybe even two and then I mysteriously get sick or hurt or think I am just too tired to do it and I fall off the wagon only to get frusterated with myself and start again! It has been eye opening to say the least. For the first week, I was really careful and ate really well, then I started to get huge cravings for bad stuff - (like chocolate) but I didn't give in, then today I had 4 cookies (I know... why did I make them in the first place? I should know better than to test my willpower!) and now I feel sick!! Even though it is after 11 p.m. maybe I should take a jog around the block?! J/K it is way too cold for that! So now that I have rambled on for a paragraph - here is what I have learned:
1-Do NOT rely on willpower - it's too easy to make excuses!
2- I can go without Diet Coke for 2 days in a row and not miss it - so why drink it on day 3?
3-If I know I can't stop at one bite of the cookie - don't take the first bite!
4-It's much harder to work it off my bod, then it is to put it in my mouth!
5-I can do 30 minutes on the eliptical, so my 10 minute work outs are not going to cut it anymore.
6-I want a healthier body more than I want those sweets or that cheese or... the many other traps out there!
7- I hate counting calories... it takes to much preparation!
8-# 7 is the reason I am now overweight!!
I know I need to focus on being healthy not on not being fat... I am giving my little girl the wrong message and she is constantly talking about being fat, cause she is not stick thin as her other siblings are, yet she is just right for a 4 year old! I keep telling her that she is not fat, but she points to her belly and says 'yes, I am, mom, just like you!' Why do they only listen to the bad things you say?!
So the battle rages on, this week was not stellar forme, but I have a new determination to do much better and win this contest so that I can afford to buy me some clothes of this century!!:)