This week was the worst and yet also the most inspiring! I loved the messages I heard from The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, Semi Annual General Conference. I needed to hear most of them and thankfully have them recorded and can refer back to them and plan to, often. I especially loved the power behind the talks coming from the passion and knowledge of the men and women who gave them. My favorite was Elder Jeffrey R. Holland's testimony of the Book of Mormon and it's truthfulness. It made me want to dive in and develop that exact same testimony and passion for the book and I plan too!
The part that is hard for me is that so many of the talks were on love... God's love and our love for others. This past week some events occurred and some harsh words were spoken between me and Greg's business partner. We have never really 'liked' each other all that much, but have for the most part until this week dealt with each other. I would say that I can get along with most everyone...( until you treat someone in my family badly then I come out fighting.) I have never liked how he treats Greg and was against the partnership in the beginning because of these very concerns... however, that is water under the bridge or spilt milk... as they are partners at least for the next 2 1/2 years. Anyway it is causing great distress...mostly to my husband as he is caught in the middle to some degree, it has brought up issues in our marriage and made things a little shaky... that is obviously something we need to work on! However, my problem is this... I've heard all my life 'turn the other cheek', love thine enemies... etc, but I have never been faced with actually having to put it into practice and frankly part of me really doesn't want too!! I have never disliked someone so much in my life! Unfortunately it's not like I can just stay away from him either. So that's my quandary... how do I let it go and move on. I feel like a horrible person for not being able to just forgive and forget, and I also have no desire to feel my blood pressure rise every time I see him. It's also very hard because I actually really like his wife and like his family members that I know - we just do not like each other. I know the best step is to pray for a softened heart towards him - but I don't know if I can right now with any sincerity. Do I do it anyway?
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I'm so sorry you are having to go through this. I have found when I really don't like someone, the key is to pray for them. As I have done that, my feelings for them change. (Now it doesn't happen overnight, but gradually your feelings become genuine love and concern--I testify that it will happen. And, obviously pray for them)
Hang in there, my friend. You can do it. And God wants you to do it, you know that after listening to everything that was said at Conference.
I hear you Sheri. It is so hard to pray for someone that you are having difficulties with. I always say "Oh, I can pray for him! I will pray for him to fall and break his leg!" I don't really think that will be the best sort of prayer though. I think you can pray sincerely that your feelings will soften. That would be a start. I am sorry you have to deal with this. It doesn't sound too fun.
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